Untitled. Unidentified. Unfinished.

Rowan. 20. Human. Queer. Feminist. Sex positive. Agnostic.


sendingicebergs said: People are not medicine. Abuse is abuse. Leave it alone.

Thankyou for that. I needed it.

So a month or so ago Sammy graffitied two pictures of her holding both middle fingers up outside my mums house.

I called the police to report it as I felt it was intimidating behaviour (and vandalism obviously), but they couldn’t really do anything as there was no proof it was her, and no neighbours had witnessed anything. 

A few days ago I noticed that it has been painted over or scrubbed off. I don’t know who did that, but I want to thank them from the bottom of my heart because it being there made going to my mums house an upsetting and traumatic experience instead of a happy one.

The first time I saw it I literally stopped in my tracks, my heart dropped through my stomach and I was pretty much speechless. I couldn’t believe that she would do this, particularly not there, not at my mums. I know she values family, and I was shocked that she would want to bring hurt and upset to my family’s door.

But it’s gone now at least, and I am moving far far away from here. I won’t have to avoid her or her friend’s on nights out, and hopefully I won’t have to worry about her harrassing my friends about me anymore.

But what really sucks is that at the end of the day I really just want to know she’s ok. Maybe I should have spoken to her about the graffiti, asked how she was feeling and if there was anything I could do to help her move on and be ok. But I didn’t, so maybe now it looks like I don’t care. But I do care, an incredible amount, and I hope one day she can see that.

A little announcement!

So I have been pretty lax in posting here - I’ve been quite busy of late.

But my latest and most exciting news is that I will be moving to London in a months time, to study a HND in Specialist Makeup at West Thames College. I am really excited and nervous, it is going to be a crazy adventure!

Tish is moving with me, we are going to first crash at my cousin’s place while we flat hunt. Hopefully it shouldn’t take us too long to find somewhere. Tish is looking for graphic design work down there, and I have some family there with connections in that area, so hopefully we should be on our feet pretty quick. I will be looking for a part time job as well, though luckily I will get a student loan and grant so that will help a lot with rent etc.

So to any followers in the London area, I would love to meet some new people and make friends, and get to know the city better! So please do message me if you think we would get on!

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This week I will find out whether I got the apprenticeship at the National Theatre. I have never been more scared about anything in my life. Literally my whole life is hanging in the balance here, this could change everything.

If I don’t get it, I won’t have lost anything, I will be in the same position I already was, only feeling more confident because I know I did well throughout this experience, to get through to the second interview etc. I will pick myself up and keep working hard - this whole thing has motivated me, shown me that I can and do want to work really hard to achieve my goals.

But if I do get it… well wow. It would be amazing. It means moving to London in September, Tish coming as well, us just running off for an amazing adventure in the big city. It would mean a lot of hard work and a lot of growing up pretty quick, but I know I have a great support system behind me who I can always turn to. 

All my fingers and toes are crossed, but I’m trying to prepare myself for the possibility of not getting the job as well. Now it’s just a waiting game, I’ve done everything I can to show them I would be the right person, and I know I have done that to the best of my ability, I’m proud of myself for getting this far. 


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am I sick from anxiety or am I actually physically ill? a memoir by me

am i lazy or horribly depressed: the sequel

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